letting go

it seems lately that there is a pattern in my life. a pattern of learning how to let go when i don't want to. when i finally come to the point where i feel safe enough to really hold on tight to something, it decides to let go of me. every time i talk myself into trusting something familiar, i find the earth moving beneath me and all the walls changing and everything i thought i knew quickly becomes strange. it is funny how the things i want always seem to run away and the things i could do without chase after me. it is such an irony and i guess it keeps me pretty level-headed and in check with reality.

but despite the unpredictability, i am unusually optimistic. and life is good and full of possibilities and i am free. go ahead, leave me... i am free. :)