called to love

*this is what spills out of my heart when i think about the love affair that i have with a country i have never been a citizen of.*

Broken streets and broken souls call
I am compelled to answer, answer them all
Your small hands have taught me more than textbooks could contain
Your selfless joy is like my heart's refrain
I'd choose you over a city of gold - all of you, every inch
I'd choose you first and I'd choose you again
I am a jealous lover, it's my heart you win
You're more than a memory, more than a friend
More than beauty and dirt and land
More than a good story to tell, more than I can stand
I am who I am because of you
It's taken years to verbalize, but for years it's been true
My commitment to you runs deeper than a flutter in my chest
You have all of me, my worst and my best
I love you longer than seven days
Beyond borders and languages, my love stays
I love you stronger than a smile or a tear
Because I choose to love in the face of pain and fear
I've felt welcomed, accepted, rejected and betrayed
I was close to giving in and letting heartbreak have its way
But I am led to you by a greater Hand
And my trivial emotions are irrelevant to His plan
I haven't forgotten you, I never could
You are my first love, and my love is for good

:)